My baby sister, Tristen Lynne Bowman took her life on April 11 2008. It's been 8 weeks since she died. Her birthday is coming up she would have 21 on June 25. My heart aches so hard it's unbelievable God would let you hurt this bad. I know that sounds selfish thats just how I feel sometimes. I know I just have to keep being strong but somedays I just wanna say screw it...damnit this hurt to bad. But I have a great Parents, and great friends and they think I'm strong and I feel the exact opposite. Most of my family is LDS as as am I. We always always were taught not to judge any one in any way. Tristen took it to another level she could literally see your heart. She is one of the most none judge mental people I've ever known she's put me my place quite a few time while I bawl and try to write this entry.
I had one of those days today Wade was biking with Bo. in tow. I was home alone and didn't want to be hurting alone. So I hopped in my car and went to Kaysville to go visit here grave site. On my way home I stopped at there house and my mom gave me this poem that I've been dying to get my hands on so it was a really crappy copy...My parents have there poem really nice looking in a frame and everything. So I came home went straight to the computer and started typing and crying and then having to stop. I just want to list a couple lines in "Tristen's Poem" 1st line "Exquisite and fair as a blessing from the heavens above" I look at that line as Tristen's birth into this world. You just have to read it...
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